An account of my life, the strength found in uncertainty & the decision to overcome
I started CrossFit seven months ago. Much like other areas in my life, I went into it not expecting much of myself. I saw it as a hobby, something to pass my free time, maybe something my friends would join in too. After the first few weeks, my entire body ached, I had bruises on my shins, and welts covered the backs of my arms after numerous failed attempts at double-unders.
Seven months ago, I started looking for a new job. Much like other areas in my life, I went into it not expecting much. I searched websites, talked to family friends, and even applied for a few things out-of-state. After a few weeks, nothing developed and so my interest and motivation to keep searching began to diminish.
I joined a small group Bible study seven months ago. Much like other areas in my life, I went into it not expecting much. I saw it as a way to meet other people my age, an opportunity to network, and a maybe even a way to understand this Jesus guy a little bit. After a few weeks, I started to learn about my most guarded, inhibiting, and debilitating fears and weaknesses.
Five months ago I made a commitment to test my physical strength and bend some mental boundaries to see what I’m actually capable of, even when the weights feel too heavy for my fatigued muscles, when heavy breathing is the only sound I make, and when the screech of the clock seems to scream “Give up!” at me.
Five months ago I made a commitment to do my very best in my job by learning everything I could and by improving my written and verbal communication, even when the atmosphere is extremely negative, when the negativity puts pressure on my responsibilities, and when I feel consumed by a misguided sense of purpose.
Five months ago I made a commitment to Jesus that I would not be a fan, but instead a follower of Him in every second of every day, even when I’m tempted by Satan, when I’m challenged by my past and present sins, and when I fear what tomorrow holds.
Three months ago I did my first unassisted pull up and have never used another band.
Three months ago I began sharpening and molding my leadership skills and started practicing new management skills by implementing a monthly goal and incentive system for my interns.
Three months ago I overcame a fear and volunteered to be a Spanish-translating witness of the gospel to others for a church-wide food, coat, and toy distribution project for needy families in my community.
One month ago I signed up for the CrossFit Open, finished 619th in the North Central Region, and accomplished 75-pound snatches, prescribed toes-to-bar, and prescribed chest-to-bar pull ups, each for the first time.
One week ago, I celebrated the negativity in my office because it shows that that type of lifestyle and behavior is something I no longer associate myself with.
One day ago I prayed a ridiculous prayer to the creator of the universe and decided I would trust Him more and more, fear all else less and less, and become who God wants me to be.
Now, I… “3, 2, 1 … LIVE!”
